Money $$$

Life had been going on very slowly after I finished my foundation. Speaking about my pre-university study, Alhamdulillah I passed the minimum CGPA required to get into the pharmacy degree. Next week would be the interview session. I am really praying that I would get it because frankly speaking, there is no where else I could go to. 

Most of the times, I am expecting a peaceful degree life, that everything would go on well, that I could spend everyday studying and lazying around. But, I know that it would never be such things. There would be frequent calls and emails to first get the allowances. What freaking me much is what if the same thing happened during foundation would repeat itself during degree? What if we are not allowed to sit for final? Or what if we need to pay the fee ourselves first? How could I even afford it? Couldn't I just stop bringing troubles to my family *sighhh

I thought I have land myself in a comfortable situation with a scholarship's contract. Never would I have known that this contract could tie me to the ground someday, the days when I feel like flying and soaring high. 

I hate to make my parents worry about me.

Some people do not understand this. 

They think I am money oriented. 

That a check worth only 2k could send me shouting at someone old enough to be my grandfather. 

Those who grow up with me would know that I would not let mostly everyone to buy me foods. I don't take presents during my birthday. I insisted to pay for that one bite of food from their plate. 

I grow up, firmly believed that once you owe someone, you are going to feel indebted to him or her forever. That, this later could cost you your just personality. 

I don't take people's money. 

I might be poor. But, not in term of dignity. 

I am just fighting for my right. For what I had been promised. 

I just want everyone to do their job responsibly. How hard could that be? After all, you are going to be answering Him someday. 

I don't take people's money. But, it does not mean money is of no importance to me. I just want enough. Those who had been my students would know that I would only impose fee on them when I am really broke. 

I need money for food. I need money for assurance. I need my own money because I don't want to continue being a burden. 

I thought a scholar could give me money.

And giving money they did. Only that you need to beg shamelessly until you finally give up and call your parents. AGAIN.. 

I am not that money-craze. I never dream of being rich pun. I just want to study, do charity works and make my parents happy. But, how can I do that when every single time, there would be problems in either allowances or payment of fees? 

And, people would just be "Chillaxx... just money issue.. no need to be that mad.."